Finally I was the one who blurt it out as no one was voicing out the decision. Letting go a full 3 years relationship is difficult but I'm sure I will be able to cope. He wants to be alone for awhile, if he still wants me back, that time will come when it is right. I hope time heals my broken heart. Seeing him trying to love me back it painful. Really. I cried out loud to myself. No one will be there to see except Yoshi now. I just hugged him and he told me to stay strong.
I will have to clear my mind now. Taking deep breaths, cleaning away my tears, but more is flowing out non-stop.
I don't understand how a 'lovely' relationship can end like this. He said I was forcing and blaming him for making my year end like that. But all I wanted to say was I want to spend my festives with him. Too bad its too late to save anything. Too late for everything now. Lonely Christmas, lonely new year. Super sad still with his one word replies.