In school I'm just a NOBODY~! ThinkI should go and sing that "Nobody" song. Arg I just had lunch with my friends and I suddenly realised they always sit together and leaving me and another guy at one corner. So what do you think I am? Someone for you when your best friends are not around? Entertain me only when you have the time? My deifinition of entertaining me is very simple. You don't have to act like a clown but just simply LISTEN. I hate this feeling, really.

And whenever I look at that group, I kind of miss the beautiful and fun time we had in the past. But just because of one just one particular incident, I had to force myself and to save the pride in me to not return to them ever... I realised that I really miss them though. Do they?

My so called friends also don't trust me, don't wanna be close to me. All I'm left with is my family and my Dear. But at that point of moment in the food court, I felt really isolated. It keeps me wondering my motive of waking up at 530am every morning and coming to school is just school work. Nothing else for me to look forward to. I can just bang my head on the wall and cry till my eye balls pop out and room flooded with tissue paper and nobody knows. I'm super ultimate alone now in this huge place.

The purpose of this post is to just let me express what I'm really feeling in my heart. I cried a little too while eating and wondering nobody will notice, not even that guy friend who is facing me. I'm crying now too while typing. I really can't wait for time to pass faster clock move like a rocket and quickly leave this place. Its making me emo and everything... I'm not who I'm in the past anymore.



Today school ended at 12pm and I stayed back for project. Got to make 2 slides with about 6 points cuz I can't find anymore. Hais...
Sian super hungry cuz had my lunch at around 9plus... Arg but i want to loose some weight...
Tomorrow I will end at 4. Another long day...
I can't wait for my assessment to end. It will commence in next week!! Gosh super kan chiong now.