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- Monday, August 10, 2009 -

I truly need to leave my past and live in the present now. Fuck my ex. I know I'm demanding so I can't be demanding anymore. Its the way he treated me leaving me all those fear. I hate what I'm behave now. I really hate it. Living in a world so stress and all that, have to see people's face to live my life. Faking a smile when I'm actually hurt and sad inside. WHO THE FUCKING HELL UNDERSTANDS?
I'm very emotional now so my words may not make sense. But next time I'll just blog out my feelings and will not share it with anyone else. How many nights that I hugged my bear so tightly telling it my problems crying to sleep. I will survive through this all. I just have to live my life happily and thats all.. I will have to think positively and thing shall turn out positively too.
Now the main focus is my exam. I just have to do it well and off I go to leave for my clinical attachments.
I don't own people and people don't own me. I have never thought that anyone owns me a million. Its the way they think. I purely just treat them a friends and really wanted to share my problems with. But nevermind I still have my teddy bears with me every night. They will not provide me with advice but they listen and never complains. They have their own life too but they will always hear me talk every night.
Okay I need some refreshments now. Loosing too much liquid.
My cough has been more than a month. So much tan. I hate it having to clear my throat. But no worries I will still take care of myself. I love only my family and my friends and myself. And not to forget my Dear. I promise myself to leave the stupid shadow of my ex and come out to be the real me. I will just be the old me..

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Long weekend
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Although unhappy things happen, I want to tell u that I enjoy my time with you. Even just by holding onto your hands and looking up at you.... I love you Dear... I care for you and I hope you know... I wonder if you would read this but I just want to type it down. These are my feelings towards you and it will never change.
Spent my long weekend watching television programs. Went to watch G.I Joe today and its great. Didn't really study much so tomorrow is chiong-ing day!
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