Ltr goin to meet Dearie at ard 1 then till only 3... sian... i thought can spend the whole day with him but last night he called and say can meet awhile only... I prepared for today by studyin a lot for the last few days and then now realised can only see him for 2 hours... but i felt it's better than nth... So now waiting for his msg... After that i'll study and wait for my another friend to catch a movie together...

Just now my mum was angry at me cuz i didn't eat my breakfast... I read newspaper straight away after i woke up and then surf the net at 10am... wanted to write blog when my mum woke up... I push the appointment with my friend to today cuz i want to study tmr at home... So my mum started to nag and said i didn't inform her tt i was catchin a movie which i actually did... She sounded as if everytime i go out with my boy friends, something bad will happen like that... I know she cares but not all my friends are like tt.. She showin me that she doesn't trust my friends.... I very sad now... My brother just now used the prelim thing again to say me... He say since i go library to study everyday i must produce gd grades... I'm tryin very hard but i dunnoe whether i can make it or not.. I start to question myself on my own ability... Cuz most of my class tests have been failin esp my science and the recent geog mock pp...

I'm crying now even when i'm writing this... I can't stop... hai... Very sad... Disappointed that they dun allow my to study till 6plus and reach home at 7 plus at night...

dun feel like writin anymore... NO mood le... Think i'll look very terrible ltr... So goin to try and cool down first... Bye....